Little Dream
lα şoмвяą ðεl vιзŋŧσ
ŝαŝΰηαяΰ fσявїδδεη lσvε `
his secret``
dedicated to Ј-σйε`
evil me.
~ 风零的影
Such a long time. I finally realized. yes.
Cause people keep telling me that I haven't update my blog for a long... long time...
I apologize for that. Sincerely :)
A lot has happened... and I use present tense cause it is STILL happening.
OH. and yea, today is the First day of my First exam in Auss. exciting? yes.
It is quite windy today... I got waken up early 8 am by dar'leen' (anger :P)
And, we (wel, loz and jazz included) get hyper, playing cards and stuff :) great fun :P
Sometimes, I have a weird feeling... I feel lost. lost in the turning up and down. everything.
I'm happy and I know. I'm thankful but I just don't know where am I?
I lost in the reality. I lost in the dream world. I lost in myself.
It is not depressing but quite funny instead.
I have always know what I am doing. for certain, because I'm those type of person who don't want any regrets exist in my lifetime.
This is the very first time I have ever questioned myself, in a curious way. What Are You Doing?
It is not just about what I am doing, it is also related to what I should do... What is the next step?
The planning... the planning about the future. And so for I ignored it, although. It is critical.
I heard someone said this phrase before, being indifferent is some kind of cruelty towards creature.
I think it is half right and half wrong. I agree with it because indifferent doesn't have positive connotation anyway. I disagree with it because it is not something that you can control or let it be. There are different types of indifferent. Indifferent towards other, indifferent towards yourself, indifferent towards the society or the worst of all, indifferent towards everything.
I feel deeply sorry for anyway who is holding this attitude right now, including myself.
Let's go back to my little dream. Yes, little dream. the title.
My little dream is. an author. I always want to be that... scriptwriter or whatever related to words and stories. I just can't help to fall for it.
I can't, so I try to be indifferent to myself. My very little tiny thoughts
