残念。

残留的意念。

遗憾的另一种定义。

有多少人是带着无悔无憾的人生闭上眼睛？

或许不多，也不少吧？

当你终于意识到，自己活得不怎么精彩，人生怎么会让自己糟蹋成这样时，是不是已经年过半百？

又或许，就算你在我这个年龄，那些所谓美丽的年华却从来没有闪耀过，你又能怎样呢？

没有，这世界上没有一件让自己满意的事情，没有一件如意的事情。

这种感觉不只是单纯的“少年不识愁滋味，为赋新词强说愁”，它是一种，无时无刻提醒着自己如此渺小的无奈。

我们要活在现实中，知道吗？

那些苍白无力的面具，是支撑我们生存下去的氧气罩。

我们要正视这世界，知道吗？

那些转眼即逝的美好，是证明我们曾经存在过的点滴。

所以...

最后的最后，不要说什么道德，也不要说什么人生。

我们追求的，只不过是自我满足的欲望。

那些绚烂的梦想，疯狂的理想。

万物之灵是可悲的。

他们有着这个地球上最精密的思考，却同时肩负着最多的烦恼。



xk.

A.S.


yes yess. A.S.

havent update for a long long long time... i'm horribly sorry T______T

too much stuff goin on recently.


anywayyy.... i ll just quickly summarize up some IMPORTANT　pts we missed [that i rmb - -]for the past two weeks.


-JuJu's theorem
-kitty is extremely SENTIMENTAL&FEMININE
-lots of RANDOM convo with kitty - -
-kitty want us to have a DATE with him on9 = =
-Junyyy&Shan <3 [wel i dun think i need to EXPLAIN this RIGHT??]
-Jude's bf-to be = lil tommy = lil tony = lil pony??
-thatgirl has a BF~ BAD NEWS for all guys ey.
-we decided to make a FAMILY TREEEE!!
-and finally.... stupid ACC TEST. >.<
-and oncoming ECON TEST T____T


well that is basically it. i ll post the family tree thing up again next time when we finalize it .

PS;? http://shanshan8z.blog.163.com/album/#p1 -PICCC!



xk.

as always... Actuarial Square~


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DAY5
====

hellllooo~ sorosoro A.S> P.a.r.T.3
pretty stressful... k's car almost got dragged - -... oh&congratz to fran... for the ultimateRETURN of her 8gbUSB ^__^
anywayyyy....

durin lunch today, [k*shan*fran tried hard to finish thechips... omg... this is totally random?!]
there is this convo bout the relationship between GUYS. as in. guys. male? ... - -
so... there you go. k*fran was curious bout how all these guy things work. coz. kitty*kwokyyy seems to know each other quite well, in fact, BFF.
[ps: kitty LIKE to TEASE kwokyyy A LOT... and kwokyyy react quite... INTERESTINGLY... what? dont get it? msn me lol]
the thing is, they always seat FARFARAWAY from each other... WHY? srsly. e.g. durin stat lec, they re like in SAME ROW, NEXT to each other.
NOT EXACTLY... because, dere's a seat between them... that row is not even full~
these are the SOLUTIONS shan*fran came out with:

solution 1
-------------
Shan: This is how guys work. Cause girls normally stick together, guys don't necessarily do that. [calm*cool*experienced tone]


solution 2
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Fran: OhOHH![gasp~] you know what... mayb kitty*kwokyyy found that they are TOO CLOSE to EACH OTHER.
They decided to KEEP DISTANCE with EACH OTHER.

[k:OHH! SAFE DISTANCE EY....{evil evil look}]

so what do YOU think? *_____*

[k:ermm... dat's actually quite true you know. coz everytime kitty talks to junyyy, kwokyyy is like... ignore them basically or like lookin at elsewhere or actin like aloner... - -]

i guess both solution are quite reasonable in their own way?! [haha. i m not kidding #___#]

therefore, k made a BIGBIGG DECISION.
from NOW on, kitty*kwokyyy will be the MAIN MAIN CHARacter. so where is thegirl?
oh... i almoz left her out... sorry... ermm, she is with EG now. [jude was complainin that he is such a PLAYER. becoz he changed his gf EVERY week... right...]
and EG embarrassed himself again. Lec: the GENTLEMEN with GreeeeN shirtz, can you STOP TALKIN?
GreeeeNshirtz's gentlemen:....{stare at sheets blankly, embarrassed smile}
[need k to tell u who that gentlemen is?i dont think so =) ]



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DAY6
====

ermmm...

ntg much again. except the normal routine of how kwokky try hard to be aloner - -

oh yea~ there is a new member for our lil story... erm. we ll just take him as the the Srs guy now...

i m pretty sure A.S. ll come out with some EXCELLENT name soon enough. lol.

anyway. Jude gave this name for those 4 main char... kitty, kwokyyy, junyyy & dat Srs guy/HKguy no.2

S.T. = SeriouS TEAM~ well i guess it suits them pretty well in a way?



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DAY7
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juz an interestin observation.

kitty*kwokyyy sat next to each other... but their table thingy were like... splitted? [Jude said dat bein aloner is the nature of kwokyyy... i strongly.. AGREE.]

econ lec was cancelled... [Jude found her BRANDNEWSUPERPOWER ABILITY which is PREDICTIN FUTURE! oh! this sounds like ACTUARY's job ey, lol only diff is with NUMBERS =p]



AND... AND... there is another ROMANCE goin on, guess who are in it?














here is the sol.

{junyyy&shan}
[ps; shan. don't bring extraShirt next time. k? @___@]



xk.

for Actuarial SQUARE~

sososoo... WELCOME! YOKOSO to A.S. P.a.r.T II



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DAY3
====

ntg happened today. lol.
oh. k*jude*fran were quite amazed by...ourselves... y? coz we survived thru 2 weeks of uni = =
so... yea, kwokyyy wore a pink shirt.. i was about to give him a BRANDNEWNAME=pinky lol



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DAY4
====

erm. yea kitty*thegirl didnt communicate much either... haiz.
in fact, thegirl*EG starts to sticktogether hahhaa. so, k says dat life is UNPREDICTABLE.
poorkitty juz hangout with the other guy[which we havent name dat person lol]
kwokyyy acts like aloner as usual... - - so, yea.
[apparently. k*fran were discussin bout future, k told fran she is worried bout passin this sem. &fran told k she would pass with MULTIPLE COLOUR....^ ^....flyin MULTIPLE colour... i guess?]
oh, and by the end of the day... kwokkyyy ignored kitty &sticks with junyyy sooo much...[k was confused as usual...shan concluded that junyyyy is SUCHaNICEPERSON... derefore ppl wanna be close to him~ ermm... k wonders bout the closeness...~__~]



any further queses juz comment ^____^



xk.

we re changing our OFFICIAL NAME from

E.T. [embarrassed team]

to

A.S. [actuarial square]

cheers =)



xk.

for actuarial SQUARE ^ ^

HAHHAHAHAHHAA... please forgive me for being a bit OVEREXCITED.

anyway lol.

what is this ACTUARIAL thing? well... after the two weeks of totally "interesting" lectures&tutorials~
we...[as in the E.T. EMBARRASSEDTEAM = 4girlswithanaverageageof18...] realized some "interesting"
facts in our course.

so... before i even start this LITTLESTORY. let's introduce the main character.[this is for the sake of fran&jude...]



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MAINCHAR
========

*kitty = mr.whoever {Hello, Kitty's BF lol}
*thegirl {well. fran was BULLIED by me... according to shan... apparently i forced her to talk to thegirl- well i did lol}
*kwokyyy = hkguy {right... thespelling leads to lots of UNBELIEVABLESTARES in the libcafe...- mainly because we're tooLOUD - -|||]
*EG = embarrasing guy{ok... this is suppose to be my ex, and fran's CURRENT BF accordin to jude LOL. why is he embarrassed? well... he embarrassed himself too frequently i guess ~___~ NOTE:fran,communicate! and find out more~ hahaha}
*junyyy = vietguy {substitute of the EG~}
*Mr.Red = call back guy
*Mr.Colourful = friendless guy

i think that's it. well if you want to know more about ET... there you go.



====
E.T.
====

k = me.
fran = the.ultimate.genius
shan = super.calc.genius
jude = thegod.of.eating&sleepin...

right, i think we re kinda off topic... so here you go...



====
DAY1
====

everything started because k*shan were bored yesterday.they were seatin in stat lecture but doin calc hw...
anyway... the air-cond in that lecture room was SUPERCOOL... ok i know, you are wondering why this is included. this'll explained how shan saw kitty put the jacket on thegirl~ [and it is VERYLOVIN ^ ^]
so k was excited bout this whole 1st couple of actuarial course thing ^ ^ and k*shan decided to OBSERVE them. btw, fran concentrated on the lecture soooo much - - & jude fall asleep one second after the lecture started. huhu~
basically, kwokky&kitty are BFF(bestfriend4eva)... so, kitty ignored kwokky for thegirl. kwokky felt very depressed. [this happened another time durin math lec, kitty&EG were teasin each other, kwokky felt left out. he basically lay on the desk&stared blankly lol. OH, and something funny happened as well. this is where Mr.Red come in. someone phoned Mr.Red& he was like replyin "I'LL CALL YOU BACK" x3 with extremely deep/audiblevoice? and our lecturer was like "NO! YOU'RE NOT CALLIN BACK!"~ HAHA]
back to topic~ so k*shan thought dat this is sort of like a triangle relationship~ k*shan tried hard to take sum pics of dat couple-to-be~ that's basically what happened yesterday. [AND, fran*shan found out that i laugh RHYTHMICALLY. = =]



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DAY2
====

ohso... k was playin backgammon on hp~ &shan came along... b4 lecture starts, k asked shan whether the observation should continue or not. regardless the answer, it did continued.
SO, k*shan*jude find EG sitting by himself. [it is weird... cause, we thought dat EG*kitty are becomin BFF... so, yea, they should be sitting together right? anyway, dey didnt communicate much after the math lec... apparently, shan concluded that EG might like to make new friends, dat's y.] oh and, thegirl came late. kitty*thegirl didnt seat 2gether, so sad. another interestin event is that, fran came late and EG shifted his seat straight after fran shifted away from him. [k concluded that EG felt hurt bcoz fran doesnt wanna seat near to him LOL]
durin the 10minsbreak, fran was FORCED by k to communicate with thegirl. hAHA, jude helped out as well, goodjob, jude~ and we found out more about the girl, welldone, fran~ [plz extend ur communicating skills on EG next week =)]
so, we went to lib cafe while waitin for the next class which is 2 hrs later o__o and like, basically the ET & loz, loz's fren, joanne, joanne's fren... 8 ppl in ONE TABLE. you can imagine how crowded it is ~ we're the NOISIEST, i guess? nah~ i'm pretty sure WE ARE the NOISIEST, CRAZIEST >.< jude&fran list down the mainchar of this ongoin story on a paper LOL~
after the lunch, we were plannin to go to the upper level to deal with the STATQUIZ... well, coz it is almost IMPOSSIBLE to get a comp in such busy hour. however, shan saw kitty*junyyy SHARINN comp together [lol, anyone dat noe me REALWELL ll know what i'm thinkin bout on that spot~ HAHA] so, fran smiled to them~ shan kinda waved~ k just CANT STOPLAUGHIN.
as you can imagine, the ET made the most RATIONAL decision... = go in & talk to them. once again, our communicator fran was forced to talk to them LOL~ stuff went well&we introduced ourselves FORMALLY...[how formal can it be - -] jude managed to take sum pic, FANTASTIC=p [oh... cant post pic coz phonecable not workin... ll fix up later so u guys can ENJOY ^ ^]so. after finishin the DISASTROUS QUIZZES. kitty&junyyy went off. and k*shan*fran watched a movie~ IPMAN in lib lol... ANYWAY we re LOOKIN FORWARD to the followin dayz... hope there will be MORE&MORE interestin lil details that ll ENRICHED our boring life.



P*S; forgive me for havin such CRAPPYGRAMMAR... since i'm a SEMI-LOCAL =p oh & anything,anyone,anyplace mentioned here are ABSOLUTELY 'FICTIONAL', believe OR NOT *___*



xk.

那是灵魂的 舞蹈，在朦胧的未知里 迷失了方向。

那是灵魂的 歌颂，在浩瀚的宇宙里 失去了声响。

那是灵魂的 祈祷，在沉寂的黑夜里 被神祗遗忘。

那是灵魂的 怒火，在褪色的记忆里 淡化为哀伤。

那是灵魂的 眼泪，在无尽的穹苍里 被阳光蒸放。

那是灵魂的 笑颜，在流离的岁月里 幻化为沧桑。

桃花依旧笑 春风，遗下那物是人非 只是一场空。



xk.