永远

我想，没有资格去承诺。

也许，没有自信去面对真相。

我想，人不该活得太清醒。

现实，终究血淋淋的残酷。

不该，逆着风，寻找散落一地的年华。

总是，昧着心， 当个傻子。

我想，已经习惯了不眠的夜。

听着，让人悲从中来的字句。

缅怀，那些错误的美丽。

终日，狼狈地拖着麻痹的身心。

伪装，已经到了炉火纯青的境界。

为何，还未精疲力尽。

我想，这是种惩罚。

嫉妒，被这魔鬼紧紧缠绕着。
 
我想，苦苦挣扎，也不过是想争夺那一席之地。

总是，痴人梦语，向往独占你的一切。

朋友，这词就像个双刃剑，毫不留情地插在心口。

充耳不闻，视而不见，已无法换取片刻安宁。

永远，是永远说不出口的承诺。



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In Heaven

by JYJ


지금 와서 말할 수도 없어
너의 기적 그 모든 게 허상 같아
마지막 그 모습도 서서히 기억 속에만
잠겨져 가는 것만 같아.
어딘가에서 날 보고있을까
후회해도 늦어버려 볼 수 없어

추억의 그림자에 촉촉한 내 눈물만
그 자릴 지켜보고 있어

난 못해 정말 못해
니가 내 곁에 있을 때 만큼
미안한데 그게 안돼
이젠 모든 게 떨려와

조금 더 기다리다
꿈 속을 헤매이다 (헤매이다)
결국 니 안에서 눈을 감을까봐

가지마 떠나지마
내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말
전혀 들리지 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해
한 마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해
또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

벌써 이런 계절 지나왔어
너의 흔적 찾아봐도 지워졌어

마지막 니 기억도 눈물에 터널 속으로
잠겨져가는 것만 같아

나는 몰래 꿈을 꿀래
네가 내 옆에 있지를 않아
이젠 갈게 이만 갈게
이젠 너의 길을 따라

끝없는 길을 따라 널 찾아 헤메이다 (헤메이다)
그녀를 잃고서 슬퍼만할까봐

가지마 떠나지마
내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말
전혀 들리지 않아
사랑해 널 사랑해
한 마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해
또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수 있니
거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아
사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수 있니
사랑해 사랑해 사랑해주겠니

가지마 가지마 있어줄 수 있니
거짓말 거짓말 들리지가 않아
사랑해 사랑해 보여줄 수 있니
제발 돌아와줘

가지마 떠나지마
내 곁에 있어줄 수는 없니
거짓말 다 거짓말
전혀 들리지 않아

사랑해 널 사랑해
한 마디 보여줄 수는 없니
사랑해 널 사랑해
또 다시 사랑해 주겠니

Source: LYBIO.net

Bad

Love is so bad.

I can never fix it.

Time can never bring away the pain.

I still think of you in the middle of the night.

Will you ever know?

The sleepless nights I have been through.

Your voice came out from nowhere.

It suffocates me when I close my eyes.

There can be a thousand reason to let go.

And the one and only reason not to.

Love is a terminal sickness.



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无法

那是一段被刻意遗忘的过往,

颠覆所有价值观的夏天。

世界随着你的出现乍然崩溃。

炎热的空气让人理不清思绪。

放眼望去是片绿茵茵的草原,

你的身影却格外清晰。

无法轻易离开的视线,

只不过是沦陷的序章。

那阵芬芳并未随着时间流失,

遗香久久缠绕心坎。

桃花依旧笑春风,

那份情却犹如魅影随行。

卑微地乞求着，

无法拥有的你。



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Q&A

It is like Q&A, the more you question yourself, the more confused you are.

Even if you do that 24/7, there is still a high possibility you won't understand.

Maybe there is no right or wrong.

Maybe you can never define the process.

Do you? Do you not? Do you?

Everything you ever wanted is an answer.



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承诺

施舍般的只字片语。

话别总来得突然。

脑海里余音绕梁。

那背影有着不知名的魔力。

让人流连忘返。

霎那烟火的目眩神迷，

却是遥不可及的存在。

回眸一笑是为了谁？

千言万语中，

没有一丝丝承诺。

无望的等待，

犹如无期徒刑。



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毒

古人曰，良药苦口。

而药却是个双面人。

真是个狡猾的角色。

毫无节制的摄取带来灾难。

过度依赖的结果日渐成瘾。

轻松的日子现实里不存在。

所谓的安慰也许寥寥无几。

放任荧幕上的光与影交错。

瞬间的悲欢离合与众同在。

清醒的神志只会让人无奈。

他人的脚步从不属于自己。

疲惫得让人无法抬头挺胸。

活着也就是这么一回事吧？

自主权对人类是个奢侈品。

身不由己是个不争的事实。

梦想什么的挂在嘴上就好。

忘却自我的天空依旧湛蓝。

放声大笑只为证明些什么。

自己还能苟延残喘多久呢？

盲目的追随着时间的自己，

实则为寻觅那一丁点幸福。

罂粟般的存在。

它早已被迷惑。



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怪谈

我们到不了的明天。

如果你并不存在于明天，那就等于你没有未来。

可是肉体活着就代表你有明天么？不竟然吧。

哦不，其实活着就等于希望。希望的前方是未来。

这是很根本的问题。好比鸡先生蛋还是蛋先生鸡。

我想。每个人心中都有个答案。

人类是奇妙的生物，它是如此的美丽，也可以是如此的丑陋。

承认吧，你会被人性的残酷吓得魂不附体。

与此同时，你也被人与人之间的爱深深吸引。

我是个合格的人么？我想这个社会已经悄悄地给与评论。

我们不想被人评价，却又忍不住去批判他人。

在这大染缸里生存最需要的是什么？

是美德？是狡猾？是忍耐？是智慧？

我无从知晓，本人不谙世事。

我在说谎么？那就交给你们去辨别。

你有可能什么都不需要。但是另一个你却必须全数兼备。

人类最终及的进化是什么？

在弱肉强食的世界里，能在苛刻的条件里存活的人们。

他们将拥有什么？

炸毁宇宙的核武器？媲美外星人的智慧？瞬间移动的超能力？让世界和平的意识？养生延年的秘方？

要是这些新进人类在偶然的机会回到21世纪，那它们的存在对我们而言和外星人无异。

那渴望着一切的我们对他们来说又是什么呢？一群低能的怪物？

我是多么殷切的盼望着，这些神人的到来。

来吧，来主导我们这些利欲熏心，幼稚无知，光怪陆离的人们。

怎么说着说着就离题了呢？

也许我才是那个到不了明天的人？



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Cry

i can't feel my tears.

no i can't feel it.

they're raindrops from the sky.

no they didn't come from my heart.

i can't see my tears.

no i can't see it.

they're false reflections from the mirror.

no they didn't exist on my face.

i can't taste my tears.

no i can't taste it.

they're some plain water from the pipe.

no they didn't flow from my eyes.

i didn't cry.

no i didn't cry.

this is a lie.

no i will never tell you the truth.

this is not the end.

just tell me why.

you make me cry.



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Lost

show me the path, when it is leading no where.

show me the light, when it is blinded by sadness.

show me the truth, when it is covered with lies.

show me the future, when it is painted in gray.

can you?



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Life is...

full of decisions.

full of curiosity.

full of tears.

full of happiness.

full of questions.

but the answers are nowhere to be found...



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친구의 고백

by 2AM

꽤 오래됐어 내 맘이 조금씩 변하기 시작한지
혼자서 괴로워한지
언제부턴가 니가 볼때마다
너를 울리는 남자가 너무나 미웠어
차라리 내가 널 지키는 게
나을지도 모른다는 생각이
이제는 내가 널 안아주고
사랑해주고 싶단 생각이 들었어

Baby 이제는 내게 와
And Be my lady 너무나 오랫동안
지켜봤어 말없이 서서
안타까운 가슴을 숨기며
친구로 친구로 지내야 한단 이유로
목까지 차올랐던
그 고백을 참아야 했어
하지만 이제는 고백할께
너를 사랑해

내 손을 잡고 나밖에 없다며
나같은 친구를 둔게 정말 큰 축복이라며
변치 말라고 말을 할 때마다
조금씩 자라나는 내 사랑을 눌렀어
차라리 내가 널 지키는 게
나을지도 모른다는 생각이
자꾸만 들어 하지만 참았어
너를 잃어버릴까 두려워 하지만

Baby 이제는 내게 와
And Be my lady 너무나 오랫동안
지켜봤어 말없이 서서
안타까운 가슴을 숨기며
친구로 친구로 지내야 한단 이유로
목까지 차올랐던
그 고백을 참아야 했어
하지만 이제는 고백할께
너를 사랑해

Credit:  KATTUNKAMExROX

난 정말 이것이 언젠가는 이루어질 바란다...



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注视

独自注视着你离去的背影。

不断地告诫自己，这也许是最后一次。

那只不过是矫情而已。

不愿意去承认这难以置信的事实。

一而再，再而三地让行动出卖自己的思想。

换言之身不由己。

看不见的东西就是空想。

思念这玩意儿，却狠狠地掠夺脑袋。

确实吃力不讨好。

偶尔彷徨恐惧的不知该如何是好。

但还是要为了那一丝可能性，咬紧牙根忍下去。

无论如何都放不了手。

尽管你不曾回头那灯火阑珊处。

那风雨无阻彻夜守护着你的人，一直都在。

这只是自我满足的作法。

人总是要到后来的后来才了解。

曾经的年幼无知，是如此的幸福。

或许是想太多。

不懂所谓风花雪月的浪漫。

其实想安静地，陪着你细水长流。

这只是单纯的奢求。

心撕肺裂的注视着你离去的地方。

在一起的每分每秒，依然如此珍贵。

幸福与悲伤从此并存。

那让胸口泛起苦涩的名字。

如此短暂的邂逅，却足以让人致命的伤痛。

这份感情该何去何从？



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声

聞こえないの声･･･

もう会えないから もう会わないから･･･

も伝われない･･･



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Why

this is a long long story.

i dont even know where to start.

it always revolve around you.

why does it have to be you.

when there are thousands and millions of human on earth.

the problem never get solved.

it is always the endless self questioning.

why does it have to be you.

when i already know the answer.

i used to think i ll be satisfied as long as i am by your side.

such a fool i am.

why does it have to be you.

when i understand that we will be nothing more than friend.

i keep telling myself you are slowly disappearing from my world.

but the tears always hide behind the smile.

why does it have to be you.

when i can only live in my memory with you.

i keep my eyes shut.

but i can still see your smiling face.

why does it have to be you.

when everything is fated.



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Nothing better

there is nothing better.

when you are by my side.

there is nothing better.

when you need me by your side.

there is nothing better.

when i can share you happiness and sadness.

there is nothing better.

when you accompany me during the difficult time.

there is nothing better.

when i can act like a child to you.

there is nothing better.

when you just accept every side of me without a word.

there is nothing better.

when i'm strong enough to protect you.

there is nothing better.

when you lean on my shoulder.

there is nothing better.

when i melt into your smiling eyes.

there is nothing better.

when you smile because of me.

there is nothing better.

when everything comes true.

there is nothing better.

nothing better than you.



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Irreversible

a part of me is dying. a part of me is fading. a part of me is lacking.

i don't know why. do i?

when the sun rise, i do whatever i m supposed to do.

when the sun set, i do whatever i wanted to do.

i allow myself to drift in the darkness.

i don't know why. why am i still waiting for you?

people ask me why i'm so addicted to the illusion.

because i can't have you in the reality. but i need to survive.

so i let myself to live in the fantasy. 

i don't know why. why does it goes on and on?

when you appear everything goes off track.

there is no reason or so. nothing else matters.

how long have i been waiting. i lost count.

i don't know why. why do you have to exist in my life?

time flies. almost every little single things around me changes.

except that. except that feelings. useless and meaningless.

yes. i wanted to let go. i do. i really do.

i don't know why. can you tell me why?

you don't even know a thing. don't you.

i can't blame it on you because i'm nothing to you. that's not your fault.

it is my fault for being such a fool. it is not even a joke.

i don't know why. why am i so crazy about you?

a part of my soul yearns for you. can't you tell. obviously not.

because i have been hiding it so damn well.

please don't mind. seriously. it is purely my own mistake.

i don't know why. why can't i let you go?

you are not even mine. you are not even my belongings.

more like you'll never be.

your smile, your breath, your everything. it crucifies me.

i don't know why. why do we meet each other?

when you are not supposed to be mine.

when i'm forbidden to make you mine.

when i don't even have the chance to confess anything.

i don't know why. why do i hate you so much yet...?

i would want to say that three words for a million times. but i can't.

you don't need me.you don't need trouble from me.

i'm too scared to break the balance between us. i'm afraid of losing you forever.

i don't know why.what have you done to me?

when i listen to people's love story. i think of you.

when i listen to the lyrics from love ballads. my tears fall easily.

when i'm by myself. you're always on my mind.

i don't know why. why do i still miss you?

all i can do is just running away from you.

day or night. i won't stop. i can't stop.

praying i'll wake up someday and forget everything. no way.

i don't know why. or maybe i do?

i'm sick of this endless loop.

i know these words will never reach you. but i have to say it.

it is too late to stop now. irreversible.



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Rose

More ROSE again =) My girlfriend is kumiho last ep aired yest... i m happy but sad at the same time... not very satisfied with the ending~ but oh wel~ at least my ROSE didnt die or anythin~ so yea ^_____^















srsly~ even me myself is shocked after realisin how many sig i created for him XD

anyway~ ROSE is 4ever in my heart~ juz like wat happened to JGS in '09 durin YAB time hahhaha~ (NONO~ i m no player ok =p)



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Mischievous Kiss

My latest addiction~ kim hyun joong's smile!!! SCREAMS!~ (althou ROSE is stil No.1 in my heart... ATM XD who noes bout future ey?)







dont u think this couple is juz CUTE? like srsly CUTE CUTE~~~!! >.< dey giv a totally different feelin from SKK*MGIAG's couple~ once again~ SOOOO CUTEE!!!

ahhh... and i havent started TOI... T_______T SIGH~ too much photoshops*dramas for this break.... OMONAHHH~ wat should i do (neechannn~ pa~~~ helppppppppp~)



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