To me... there is only one thing I cannot give up.

It's absolutely unique, and something that's extremely important.

Every fragment of my thoughts is made up of it.

It's an intense and strong feeling that cannot be expressed by words.

I have confidence.

This feeling can't be yielded.

I won't let anyone take it away from me.

It's for this idea that I breathe and my blood flow in my veins.

It's for this idea that I continue to paint.

Each time I paint, and not being able to get close to that idea, I grind my teeth in frustration.

This is not what I meant to say.

My thoughts are not at such level as this.

Crying out loud, "I can't reach eternity!"

As a result, I suffer, get hurt and wear myself out.

But no matter how lost I felt, this has never changed.

And I've also learned how to be born anew.

If only I could convey one millionth of this feeling...



Legend of the Holy Beast BY MINAMI OZAKI (19910320)



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DOMO~Hisashiburi~~ lol long time no see =) erm.. blog~

hahhaa~ oh wel~ first of all~ here is the A.S>>>

oh oh oh welll~ time fliesss~ 2nd SEMM! (err, to be honest... i'm not all dat excited bout this fact, i prefer my warmsmall bed*kawaiisoft bear*loudtodeath music*endless anime*endless cupramen DAYS = OTAKU life ^ ^) ohhh~ how i miss to start my beautysleep at bout 6/7 AM? ^ ^ ehem... off topic lol

anyway~ 1st day was pretty hectic~ tryin to get use to this 8AM WAKE UP thing is a HUGE CHALLENGE~ (ahha~ i can say it is harder den the drivin test lol) sci comm was pretty funny~ we stood around in a circle and try to introduce ppl beside us~ i was FORCED to introduce Jo to Jude? dat was... ridiculously funny ^ ^

ohh! and we decided to film a series of~ videos? lol~ i wonder it ll come true or not~ so how did it came to this conclusion of filming?! it is a LONG LONG STORY =)
we saw something on the notice board which kinda told ppl to CALL HIM/HER to discuss bout their PERSONAL PROBLEMS (esp. FINDING ur bf/gf betrayin u lol, i think this person is doin some research on relationship or stg~)SOOOO... I WAS ALL PASSIONATE to HELP OUT (WT...? more like playin around, yea i admit so~) i started make up stories about the love triangle of JO, FRANCESS(?), SHAWN(?) lol~ YAY~ here you go~ MY DIRECTOR DREAM! @__________@ (i wanna persuade one of them to call that person hahahhaa, imagine how interestin it is goin to be ^ ^)

after dat, we were again~ FORCED to accept the fact dat our lecturer for stats is the 2nd MOST BORING LECTURER in the world ^ ^ (well... he's not all dat bad, at least he try real hard to be funny, right?) ... erm, so dat is how we end the 1st day~ oh, wait a sec! i was goin to jump down from 4th floor~ coz the lift is too SMALL to fit all of us in (ahhh~ how POOR&SHABBY our uni is?! i m not being sarcastic... believe me... or not?)

2nd day... srsly~ the stupid road! all the detour thing was SO damn FRUSTRATIN! esp when u re in a rush = = thank god it is only one day! maths is stil.. the same old boring maths... not much to describe about... econ is stil... the same old boring econ... ohh, our lecturer broke his glasses? ermm... if u take dat as interestin... dere u go~ ohh! and we got a pretty interestin remote cont. thing in the lecture~ ermm, me, jo*fran were havin fun... (more like me havin fun to press the button lol)

3rd day~~ gehh! another early mornin T__________T i was practically RUNNING to the class~ and guess wat! the CLASS iS NOT ON! how EXCITING! when u wake up at bout 8 and drove like crazy to the uni - - anywhuu... i went home and play with my bear (not psp) ^ ^ OH~H~ after dat.... hv a pretty hectic afternoon as well~ (coz me&mama is the 'LONG SEI' DUO? ~___~ oh well~ it ll become the 'LONG SEI' TRIO after OCT~ hahahaha) so... i WAS PRACTICALLY, ONCE AGAIN, LATE for my evening class. (srsly~ i havent been on time apart from the 1st day, need to get this right T_________T) hv a pretty SRS SEMINAR about our FUTURE! well. it was... kinda interestin? apart from all that HIGHLY INTELLECTUAL TALK (which is unavoidable... c'mon, we re talkin bout ACTUARY here! RISK MANAGEMENT ey~)^ ^ one thing dat i actually find it quite interestin is the phrase below:

DEFINITION OF A COMPUTER: AN ACTUARY WITH A HEART

BIG LOL!! wat the~ we do hv heart (i ll ensure u with dat for NOW, mayb not in 3 YEARS time? who knows~)

oh~ and now~ lil gossip time ey~ when A.S. was discussin bout grouping~ JO suddenly popped out with such phrase, "why can't we just get *** by himself!" lol~ everyone is like, WHOOOOW! (need me to elaborate? hahhaha~) anyway~ since i m the PROVOCATEUR, i shall now announce u guys as the OFFICIAL couple in A.S! jkjk~ =p hahhaa~ i better stop now~ b4 sumone kick me =)

welll~ dat's basically how the first half week progressed~ me~ the ULTIMATE stalker+director+provovateur ll continue to OBSERVE everything closely ^______^

ja ne~ hv a very very very NICE DAY~

LIL JOKE: A lawyer, an accountant, and an actuary are arguing over whether it is better to have a married spouse or an unmarried lover. The lawyer says a lover because it's legally easier to disentangle yourself from a lover. The accountant says a spouse because you can get a tax deduction with a spouse. The actuary says it's better to have both because you can lie to each of them, telling each of them that you're with the other, and then go to the office to do some work.



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Geass

The power of kings, known as Geass, brings one solitude.

If there is such person known as 0 in reality.

If there is, I would like to befriend with...

Ah, forgive me for being disrespectful.

I shall clarify what I meant.

I will be more than happy to serve such GOD like figure.

You will watch over us from the heaven? Or not, maybe hell.

One thing I can be certain is, no matter where you are...

Ultimately, IT will be under your control.

Angels and demons will obey you.

Absolute Obedience.

Yes, Your Majesty.

I shall weep no more and embrace the bittersweet future.

ALL HAIL LELOUCH!



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很久很久以前，有一个平凡的小丑。

小丑不是你，不是他，也不是她，那是谁？

阿，你在问我吗？我不知道小丑有没有存在过，更不知道是谁。

阿，你还是介意？我深深地感到抱歉，这个问题大概永远无解。

小丑只是小丑。就像灰姑娘，或者白雪公主一样的存在？

唯一的不同，就只是结局大概不怎么精彩，也不怎么皆大欢喜。

不不不，怎么会是悲剧呢？

根本算不上悲剧，充其量也只不过是无聊中的产物。

一个让人过目就忘的小故事。

小丑滑稽得可笑。那浓得化不开，让人认不清的妆容。

那勾起的嘴角，为谁扬起？

小丑呆滞得可悲。那华丽且复杂，让人看不清的杂耍。

那不变的规则，为谁而立？

小丑虚伪得可恨。那绚烂的七彩，让人分不清的表情。

那斑驳的油彩，为谁而漆？

小丑要的不多。真的一点也不多。

其实，小丑也只不过想为某个人带来欢笑。

哪怕只是某个人人生里的万分之一，足矣。

其实，小丑也只不过想为某个人带来快乐。

哪怕只是某个人记忆里的万分之一，足矣。

其实，小丑也只不过想为某个人带来幸福。

哪怕只是某个人心脏里的万分之一，足矣。

小丑只是供人观赏的小丑，单纯的付出。

为什么要在离别时带上泪水呢？那只会为观众带来惆怅。

小丑永远是尽忠职守的小丑，绝不会背叛自己的观众。

赤红的幕布缓缓落下，离别的时候不忘带上完美的笑颜。

小丑不会悲伤，也不需要了解悲伤。

因为小丑用一个眼神的时间，把自己的心弄丢了。



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come back to me

by UTADA HIKARU


The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don’t want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop on
Our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won’t leave me alone

If you come back to me
I’ll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Chorus
(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(You’re one in a million)

Memories I have of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this, and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her
Side of the story
It isn’t that bad, it isn’t that bad
And she’s wiser for it now

I admit I cheated (admit I cheated )
Don’t know why I did it (why I did it)
But I do regret it (do regret it)
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Chorus
(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(You’re one in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I’m sorry but
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity
Got the better half of me
Baby take it easy on me
Anything from A to Z
Tell me what you want to be
I open my heart to be
You are more priority
Can’t you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby take it easy on me
Baby come back to me
Baby come back to me

Chorus
(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(You’re one in a million)

(Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
Boy you’re one in a million (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
I’ll be everything you need (Come back)
Baby come back to me (Come back)
You’re one in a million
(One in a million)

La la la la
La la la la la la
La la la la la la
La la la



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I can(can't) stop



a. all in

b. blinded retard

c. contribute mind and soul

d. drug addict

e. everlasting refreshment

f. final fantasy

g. grand ball

h. hell and back

i. ice and flare

j. jump off the cliff without second thought

k. killing me softly

l. laugh like insane

m. mission impossible

n. no rules apply

o. one and only

p. pathetic prisoner

q. queen and king

r. royal flash

s. shut up and petrified

t. totally captivated

u. utmost point

v. victory means nothing

w. wishes never come true

x. xmas forever

y. your highness

z. zany & zetsuai



I can't(can) stop.



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Stand By U - DBSK. [srsly... if u dunno who is dat or nv heard of dem. i guess u might be some creatures dat accidentally came to this wrong planet =)]

ANYWAY =) today is a VERYVERY MEMORABLE DAY =) i finally pass my lil PDA lol after like 3/4/5/6/7/8/infinite times? u can definitely hv a lil guess with those number HA HA AH~ THANKS to EVERYONE dat gave me any forms of support ^ ^

hv a lil bit of fun recently~ finallyyy! i dun need to worry bout PDA ANYMORE! like FOREVER =p HAHAAA~ i CAN't express my happiness with any WORDS~ it is indescribable!!! lol...

sooo.. wat hv i been doin? goin out... eat... sleep... eat... sleep... OHH and SWIMMING in my ANIME world {source: ms leekhaichyi's description of my life...} oh yea... i m an otaku+hikikomori+fujoshi... wow... half-NEET? no lah not dat serious =)

ahhh! btw~~~ P-chan is comin out with a new DRAMA AGAIN!! BUZZERRR BEATTT~! AWWW~ totally lookin forward to it ^___________^ ureshiii~

ok... i guess dat's bout it~ ja ne~

ps: JOOO~ only the ring fingers know is one of the BESTT!! GREATGREAT DRAWINGstyle!!

psps: papamama~~ i LOVE the last two pic on THE blog LOLL ^ ^ CUTEEE!



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