les miserable

windy day... feeling a bit lonely...

today is the last day of this trip staying in malaysia... thanks to Chyi （我和蔼的妈，嘿）, San （可爱的婆）, Jun （猴子狒狒，哈）& Ting（我最诚挚的贵宾）and Wen （F1赛车女郎，扫把后）.... hahaha, I have great fun last two days... anyway, I hope that next trip we can still gather together!! and play around... Huhu...

all of a sudden, silence... sometimes, life is just too complicated to understand...
Posted on 19:11 by l'Cie and filed under | 0 Comments »

unlucky week

hahaha... life is that depressing but I am still trying to force myself to smile...
Monday my leg got bruised; Tuesday I went off to the anime shop to buy some souvenir for my friend and it end up with the shop moved away; Wednesday I got running nose and soarthroat, besides, I went for haircut and it turned up to be horribly STYLE...

and today.... I got stomachache and headache... How sad... I can't really predict what will happen tomorrow... Maybe there will be much more terrible thing happen... haiz...
Posted on 16:40 by l'Cie and filed under | 0 Comments »

de...

life without hope is miserable, I can admit that without doubt...
actually the purpose of hope is just giving a perfect illusion to someone and make them achieve it, not everyone can taste the sweetness of success.

DE, means cannot be bothered. don't ask me why.

bababa...dududduludulu...bababa... undefinable vocal...

I just want to emphasize one thing, a people like me without feeling of hopeful towards future is just a wasting of time, isnt? I don't like to, and I don't want to, try to understanding the definition of growing up... why? because I am just useless, I am too selfish to sacrifice anything to change a better consequences...

如果微笑背后纯粹无奈，那又何必假装活得精彩？
Posted on 12:09 by l'Cie and filed under | 4 Comments »

extreme unfamiliar

Yesterday was really tiring... :P
It was... really, touring around with airplane and chasing the time in the airport weren't that fun anyway...

Plus... I watch FIFA until 5 AM... Italy won, yahoo! er... people whom support france don't be dissapointed... lol, but I thought last night the referee was really UNFAIR!!! Especially the 'zidance' incident... hem hem... I thought he might be 'kopi o' (haha, well... m'sia friends know what it meant to be)

But then... life is always unfair, nothing is perfectly matched or balanced... it is the world, the very materialistic world we live in... being harsh towards equality...

zzz... still yawning... tomorrow gonna visit KC, quite 'excited'... hope that you all won't forget me so quickly, your lovely "popo". haiz... days had gone by silently (ave, is there any grammar mistake here? tell me if you see)

right, there is a summary here... m'sia's AIR is really POLLUTED... compare with aus... besides, m'sia's is really BURNING compare with aus... it is not complain... but just a bit... erm, unfamiliar... environment actually influence us a lot....
Posted on 12:30 by l'Cie and filed under | 4 Comments »

happy ING

hey guys, it had been a long time we chat ya. ha. lots of thing happen and changed too. there were ups and downs, and most importantly... semester one ended. it is such a long time again since i started my totally unfamiliar lifestyle here, and i am going back my hometown. :D
Relax and build up stamina to challenge more opportunity and hardships... sad...

well, undeniably, it is very "exciting" (haha), kinda... i suppose it will become a wonderful trip... hope so...

apparently, this is one of the reason i am kinda hyper... happy ING... believe that people whom listen to May Day band will know what is it meant to be..
Can't wait till that day i go back to KC... there a majority of people don't really know i am returning... huhu, obviously, i didn't tell to give them a suprise... hope that they'll apprieciate too...

in conclusion(seems to be in an essay, :P), I thought I had to work harder next semester... not overstressed but ya, just cut off the amount of time playing around, trying to use the reason that I am still not adapt to the environment again and again... there is still much more time for me to fit it... yeap, the time for me to be adapted and slacked was limited... in a critical point... maybe, next semester will be an ANTI-on9 period... harsh for me though, got addicted to forums and blogs... especially novels...
I'll try harder, to control myself, I made a promise with myself... there will be still suitable amount of entertainment I suppose so... but... not overflowed... if it is unsuccessful... i ll still try my best... ya, I ll.
Posted on 23:35 by l'Cie and filed under | 0 Comments »

怨

那该死的爱，

如果人生能够从来，

我又怎么舍得倒带，

把你我的回忆当作一遍空白？

曾经的精彩，

如今的阴霾，

是否会成为永久障碍？

停滞的悲哀，

麻木的无奈，

是不寒而栗的伤害。

Posted on 23:31 by l'Cie and filed under | 0 Comments »

并不想，长大。

向往已久。不知不觉，半年了。
连我自己都不清楚这段期间我到底做了什么，为自己的未来贡献了什么。
或许吧，平时表现出来的泰然自若是虚幻，真正的感受是彷徨。
我只是不太想，担心我的人时刻挂忧。

怎么好象弄巧成拙？
我感叹，岁月真的经不起蹉跎。
偶尔，还是会对自己不明智的选择深感失落。

告诉自己，已经没有机会反悔。
这是定下来的格局，我要朝着某个特定的方向前进。
纵然，并非心甘情愿。
就算，从没臣服于此。
回顾过往，又有什么用处？换来的只是更多的忧虑烦恼。

倘若生命对我还仁慈的话，那它一定不会做出如此愚蠢的决定。
无奈阿，因为我就是自己的主人。
却，仍然身不由己，
放任自己的控制权，恐怕遍体鳞伤还是要对自己无知的行为付出极大的责任与代价。

这是个极其危险但还是有人愿意冒险的世界，
说穿了，名誉，利益，就是一种变相的奖赏。
贪图这些来去无常的身外之物，何苦？
不是不想，我也想做到潇洒了然的境界。
但，现实的压榨使得大家不得不盲目地信仰。
相信这是他们胡作非为的解释，
信任金钱名利带给他们的会是无穷的快感。
我只是个平凡人，这是个利诱的红尘。
尔诈我虞的万花筒。

我的问题很简单，我可不可以，不要也不知道，金钱利益的重要？

Posted on 23:27 by l'Cie and filed under | 0 Comments »

绿光冰焰

我是风，不会呼啸的风。
我是雨，不会倾盆的雨。
我是光，不曾闪烁的光。
我是焰，不曾燃起的焰。
我只是一抹翠绿，看似平静而无害，暗潮汹涌。
看似天真而轻率，沧海桑田。
我只是一息空气，毫无价值或质量，千斤万两。
毫无色彩或醇香，绚烂馨兰。
冰，雪后寒冽的心，
寒峭不断的情，冷若冰霜。

Posted on 23:24 by l'Cie and filed under | 0 Comments »

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