Life is...

full of decisions.

full of curiosity.

full of tears.

full of happiness.

full of questions.

but the answers are nowhere to be found...



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친구의 고백

by 2AM

꽤 오래됐어 내 맘이 조금씩 변하기 시작한지
혼자서 괴로워한지
언제부턴가 니가 볼때마다
너를 울리는 남자가 너무나 미웠어
차라리 내가 널 지키는 게
나을지도 모른다는 생각이
이제는 내가 널 안아주고
사랑해주고 싶단 생각이 들었어

Baby 이제는 내게 와
And Be my lady 너무나 오랫동안
지켜봤어 말없이 서서
안타까운 가슴을 숨기며
친구로 친구로 지내야 한단 이유로
목까지 차올랐던
그 고백을 참아야 했어
하지만 이제는 고백할께
너를 사랑해

내 손을 잡고 나밖에 없다며
나같은 친구를 둔게 정말 큰 축복이라며
변치 말라고 말을 할 때마다
조금씩 자라나는 내 사랑을 눌렀어
차라리 내가 널 지키는 게
나을지도 모른다는 생각이
자꾸만 들어 하지만 참았어
너를 잃어버릴까 두려워 하지만

Baby 이제는 내게 와
And Be my lady 너무나 오랫동안
지켜봤어 말없이 서서
안타까운 가슴을 숨기며
친구로 친구로 지내야 한단 이유로
목까지 차올랐던
그 고백을 참아야 했어
하지만 이제는 고백할께
너를 사랑해

Credit:  KATTUNKAMExROX

난 정말 이것이 언젠가는 이루어질 바란다...



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注视

独自注视着你离去的背影。

不断地告诫自己，这也许是最后一次。

那只不过是矫情而已。

不愿意去承认这难以置信的事实。

一而再，再而三地让行动出卖自己的思想。

换言之身不由己。

看不见的东西就是空想。

思念这玩意儿，却狠狠地掠夺脑袋。

确实吃力不讨好。

偶尔彷徨恐惧的不知该如何是好。

但还是要为了那一丝可能性，咬紧牙根忍下去。

无论如何都放不了手。

尽管你不曾回头那灯火阑珊处。

那风雨无阻彻夜守护着你的人，一直都在。

这只是自我满足的作法。

人总是要到后来的后来才了解。

曾经的年幼无知，是如此的幸福。

或许是想太多。

不懂所谓风花雪月的浪漫。

其实想安静地，陪着你细水长流。

这只是单纯的奢求。

心撕肺裂的注视着你离去的地方。

在一起的每分每秒，依然如此珍贵。

幸福与悲伤从此并存。

那让胸口泛起苦涩的名字。

如此短暂的邂逅，却足以让人致命的伤痛。

这份感情该何去何从？



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声

聞こえないの声･･･

もう会えないから もう会わないから･･･

も伝われない･･･



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Why

this is a long long story.

i dont even know where to start.

it always revolve around you.

why does it have to be you.

when there are thousands and millions of human on earth.

the problem never get solved.

it is always the endless self questioning.

why does it have to be you.

when i already know the answer.

i used to think i ll be satisfied as long as i am by your side.

such a fool i am.

why does it have to be you.

when i understand that we will be nothing more than friend.

i keep telling myself you are slowly disappearing from my world.

but the tears always hide behind the smile.

why does it have to be you.

when i can only live in my memory with you.

i keep my eyes shut.

but i can still see your smiling face.

why does it have to be you.

when everything is fated.



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Nothing better

there is nothing better.

when you are by my side.

there is nothing better.

when you need me by your side.

there is nothing better.

when i can share you happiness and sadness.

there is nothing better.

when you accompany me during the difficult time.

there is nothing better.

when i can act like a child to you.

there is nothing better.

when you just accept every side of me without a word.

there is nothing better.

when i'm strong enough to protect you.

there is nothing better.

when you lean on my shoulder.

there is nothing better.

when i melt into your smiling eyes.

there is nothing better.

when you smile because of me.

there is nothing better.

when everything comes true.

there is nothing better.

nothing better than you.



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Irreversible

a part of me is dying. a part of me is fading. a part of me is lacking.

i don't know why. do i?

when the sun rise, i do whatever i m supposed to do.

when the sun set, i do whatever i wanted to do.

i allow myself to drift in the darkness.

i don't know why. why am i still waiting for you?

people ask me why i'm so addicted to the illusion.

because i can't have you in the reality. but i need to survive.

so i let myself to live in the fantasy. 

i don't know why. why does it goes on and on?

when you appear everything goes off track.

there is no reason or so. nothing else matters.

how long have i been waiting. i lost count.

i don't know why. why do you have to exist in my life?

time flies. almost every little single things around me changes.

except that. except that feelings. useless and meaningless.

yes. i wanted to let go. i do. i really do.

i don't know why. can you tell me why?

you don't even know a thing. don't you.

i can't blame it on you because i'm nothing to you. that's not your fault.

it is my fault for being such a fool. it is not even a joke.

i don't know why. why am i so crazy about you?

a part of my soul yearns for you. can't you tell. obviously not.

because i have been hiding it so damn well.

please don't mind. seriously. it is purely my own mistake.

i don't know why. why can't i let you go?

you are not even mine. you are not even my belongings.

more like you'll never be.

your smile, your breath, your everything. it crucifies me.

i don't know why. why do we meet each other?

when you are not supposed to be mine.

when i'm forbidden to make you mine.

when i don't even have the chance to confess anything.

i don't know why. why do i hate you so much yet...?

i would want to say that three words for a million times. but i can't.

you don't need me.you don't need trouble from me.

i'm too scared to break the balance between us. i'm afraid of losing you forever.

i don't know why.what have you done to me?

when i listen to people's love story. i think of you.

when i listen to the lyrics from love ballads. my tears fall easily.

when i'm by myself. you're always on my mind.

i don't know why. why do i still miss you?

all i can do is just running away from you.

day or night. i won't stop. i can't stop.

praying i'll wake up someday and forget everything. no way.

i don't know why. or maybe i do?

i'm sick of this endless loop.

i know these words will never reach you. but i have to say it.

it is too late to stop now. irreversible.



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Rose

More ROSE again =) My girlfriend is kumiho last ep aired yest... i m happy but sad at the same time... not very satisfied with the ending~ but oh wel~ at least my ROSE didnt die or anythin~ so yea ^_____^















srsly~ even me myself is shocked after realisin how many sig i created for him XD

anyway~ ROSE is 4ever in my heart~ juz like wat happened to JGS in '09 durin YAB time hahhaha~ (NONO~ i m no player ok =p)



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Mischievous Kiss

My latest addiction~ kim hyun joong's smile!!! SCREAMS!~ (althou ROSE is stil No.1 in my heart... ATM XD who noes bout future ey?)







dont u think this couple is juz CUTE? like srsly CUTE CUTE~~~!! >.< dey giv a totally different feelin from SKK*MGIAG's couple~ once again~ SOOOO CUTEE!!!

ahhh... and i havent started TOI... T_______T SIGH~ too much photoshops*dramas for this break.... OMONAHHH~ wat should i do (neechannn~ pa~~~ helppppppppp~)



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SKK

SKK wallies~




yeap~ SKK is gettin more and more excitin =p i mean~ srsly~ Daemul in gisaeng's outfit!!! she is really beautiful ^___^  OMOO~ micky's expression is EPIC XD guh-ro is COOL&CUTE&protective as usuall =) dun need to say much bout joongki right? he is the most APPEALIN playboy outdere =p

alrighty~ i m SOOO lookin forward to micky's performance for the next few week (y? coz... he thinks he is ... gay XD)



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One More Time

by Kim Hyun Joong

내가 몰랐었나봐
Nae-ga mol-lass-eo-na-bwa

너를 몰랐었나봐
Neo-reul mol-lass-eo-na-bwa

이렇게 더 가까이에 있는데
i-reoh-ge deo ga-gga-i-e itt-neun-de

정말 소중한 것은 사라져간 후에야
Jeong-mal so-jung-han geos-eun sa-ra-jyeo-gan hu-e-ya

알수 있는가봐 지금의 너처럼
Al-su itt-neun-ga-bwa ji-geum-eui neo-cheo-reom

미안해 니가 흘린눈물 알지 못해
mi-an-hae ni-ga heul-rin-nun-mul al-ji mot-hae

미안해 이제서야 니앞에 와서
mi-an-hae i-je-seo-ya ni-ap-e wa-seo

One More Time One More Time
One More Time One More Time
 
다시 한번 내곁으로 와줄순 없겠니
Da-shi han-beon nae-gyeot-eu-ro wa-jul-sun eobs-gett-ni

언제나 너만을 사랑해
Eon-je-na neo-man-eul sa-rang-hae

늦은 이 후회만큼 더 사랑할께
Neuj-eun-i hu-hoe-man-keum deo sa-rang-hal-gge

바보같은 내가 널
Ba-bo-gat-eun nae-ga neol

마음에 없는 말들로
Ma-eum-e eobs-neun mal-deul-ro

그렇게 많이 아프게 했나봐
Geu-reoh-ge manh-i a-peu-ge haett-na-bwa

니가 아니였다면 몰랐을 행복인데
Ni-ga a-ni-yeott-da-myeon mol-lass-eul haeng-bok-in-de

이제야 알았어 니가 사랑이란걸
 i-je-ya al-ass-eo ni-ga sa-rang-i-ran-geol

고마워 소중한 사랑을 가르쳐줘
Go-ma-weo so-jung-han sa-rang-eul ga-reu-chyeo-jweo

고마워 이제 내가 더 사랑할게
Go-ma-weo i-je nae-ga deo sa-rang-hal-ge

One More Time One More Time
One More Time One More Time

다시 한번 내곁으로 와줄순 없겠니
Da-shi han-beon nae-gyeot-eu-ro wa-jul-sun eobs-gett-ni

언제나 너만을 사랑해
Eon-je-na neo-man-eul sa-rang-hae

늦은 이 후회만큼 더 사랑할께
Neuj-eun-i hu-hoe-man-keum deo sa-rang-hal-gge

One More Time One More Time
One More Time One More Time

사랑해 널 사랑해 이런 나를 다시 받아줄순 없겠니
Sa-rang-hae neol sa-rang-hae i-reon na-reul da-shi bad-a-jul-sun eobs-gett-ni

언제나 내게 준 그 사랑
Eon-je-na nae-ge jun geu sa-rang

내가 다 갚을 수 있게
Nae-ge da gap-eul su itt-ge

허락해줘
Heo-rak-hae-jweo

내 손을 잡아줘
Nae son-eul jab-a-jweo


TRANSLATION

I guess I did not know

I guess you did not know

That we are standing too close like this

We can’t really let this beautiful thing disappears

Now you will understand me

I’m sorry that I didn’t know the reason behind those tears

I’m sorry, now I’m right in front of you

One More Time One More Time

Can you return to my side once again?

I will always love you

I’ll never regret, I will only love you

I’m so foolish

For not knowing what’s inside your heart

It seems to be in pain

Without you I don’t happiness

Now I understand what love is

Thank you for teaching me about love

Thanks you, now I will know how to love you more

One More Time One More Time

Can you return to my side once again?

I will always love you

I’ll never regret, I will only love you

One More Time One More Time

I love you, I love you

Will you accept me again someday?

Please let me return it to you

The love you always gave me

Just hold my hand

Hangeul credit: jessica @ kpopjpoplyric.blog.com
Translation credit: MsHiik @ youtube + kpopfreeze.blogspot.com



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烟火


灿烂如烟火，绚丽得令人欲罢不能。

却忘了那一刻，也不过是昙花一现。

那七彩缤纷，有着令人灼伤的高温。

就如飞蛾扑火，不顾一切牺牲奉献。

许下的承诺，更是一场盛大的梦境。

请冷的夜空里，没有留下一丝痕迹。

灯火阑珊处，孑身一人回味着过往。

褪色的记忆里，找不回曾经的感觉。



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Sungkyunkwan Scandal

 덫

by 诺珉宇


不要离开我

我无法放开你

命运交错 没能握紧你的双手

日日夜夜痛苦地呻吟着你的名字

不要去爱他

有我在这里

自从遇见你的那天起 千百度寻觅

一遍遍描绘拥抱你的情景



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ROSE







yes... plz forgive me for being SO CRAZYY bout him lately XD (esp to my AS family hahhahah~) he is juz TOO BEAUTIFUL TO BE TRUE! DONT YOU THINK SO?! ( NO?! ARGHHH~ loll)

i juz hv to get his face on my desktop XD cant stop lookin at him hahahha~ end up tryin to PS him~ but srsly couldnt come out with anythin better to decorate it! once again~ HIS FACE IS JUZ.... SOOO OMO!!! ntg can compare to it.... i gave up puttin anythin on it except his name XD yeappo~ nah~ his real name is No Min Woo (pretty cool ey~)

in conclusion~~ OH MY ROSE!!!

ps:/ did i mention how ANGELIC his VOICE is?! NO?! oh my badd~ please listen closely to my bg music TRAP XD



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くちづけ（TVサイズバーション）

歌：BUCK－TICK
作詞：櫻井敦司
作曲：今井寿
編曲：BUCK-TICK
 
愛し　愛し合うのさ　もっと

激しい渇きに狂いそう

目を閉じて　罪深き　くちづけ

お前の匂い　狂わせろ

真夜中に目覚めて

狂気　愛　飲み干す

おいでこの腕の中　あっちの闇は苦いぞ

君は惑い揺らめく

やがて永遠になる　こっちの闇は甘いぞ

僕は深く突き刺す

おいでこの腕の中　あっちの闇は苦いぞ

君は惑い揺らめく


Translation:
I’ll love and we’ll love each other more

Seeming to go mad in our intense thirst

Close your eyes and give me a sinful kiss

Drive me mad with your scent

Waking up in the middle of the night

I’ll drink insanity and love dry

Come here into my arms, the darkness over there is bitter

You’ll get confused and waver

The darkness over here that’ll turn eternal before long is sweet

I’ll pierce you deeply

Come here into my arms, the darkness over there is bitter

You’ll get confused and waver



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PS

was juz flippin thru the folders of pic~ & end up doin this compilation of PSed stuff~ it is actually quite fun to see wat u ve done long long time ago =p i saw some really realllyy horrible ps (SHOCK,  my skill was SO OMO bk then~ watt? u wanna hv a look LOL~ it is in the anime section... i kinda eliminated the EXTREMELY bad one XD)

anyway~ other den my drama+anime+manga+novel+jpop+kpop+bear+fanfic+bishounen huntin...yeaa... ps is one of my hobby as wel  ^_____^